When was the last time you stopped and praised God for how He made you? Psalms 139:13-14 says, "For you created my inmost being, You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Hmmm, if you are like most women it’s more like grumbling and complaining about what you see in the mirror; or wishing you were more like this person or that celebrity. There are several things I’d like to change not only about my appearance but also my "inmost being." When I was younger I really wanted a nose that wasn’t so straight. A nice little slope would have suited my face better, so I thought. Struggling with weight has not been an issue for me. I am blessed with some long and lean genes. But oh how I desired to have a body with more curves like all those other girls that seemed to get more attention than I did growing up. Looking back I’m thankful I didn’t receive unnecessary attention. As a mother of a 10 year old daughter I’m wishing the same amount of attention for her. And yes, the long and lean gene is running through her blood as well. : )
I had a simple revelation the other morning. There are so many things in life that we can control or at least try to control, but the way God created us to be is NOT one of them. Sure I can change my hair color, workout and get tone muscles, wear more or less make-up, dress up or down, wear heals to make me taller, black to look slimmer, or lay in the sun to get a nice tan. None of that changes the DNA God put in my cells while He was knitting me together.
Aside from looks I’d love to change some things about my personality and character traits. I married a very black and white, responsible, financial guru who needs a specific plan of attack for most things in his life. I’m a neat person who loves to go with the flow, change plans at a drop of the hat and be around people…A LOT. There are so many occasions in our marriage that I wish I could be more like Matt. In my head, our marriage would flow better. I don’t think like him AT ALL! Like, never. Not once. His thoughts don’t even begin to creep into my mind; and vice versa. But I guess that’s why God paired us up. Funny joke there on His part! I’m an organized person but I feel like I lack responsibility. Why do I forget to RSVP to parties? Why do I procrastinate? Why do I forget things Matt tells me? So we can fight more? These things just aren’t my gifting. It doesn’t mean I’m not always trying to improve myself. I highly doubt there will come a day that I will no longer want to be surrounded by friends and family and not want to do something spontaneous. It’s just how God made me. I like to think I bring a little excitement into Matt’s life. He definitely keeps me grounded. (But I still think the clouds are more fun!)
The older I get the less insecure I am about my faults and physical features that I can’t change. True friends don’t really focus on your negatives. They help to bring out the best in you and hopefully balance out your strengths and weaknesses. God did know what He was doing when He made each of us! If we truly allow ourselves to reflect on the wonder of the human body and mind, we would be praising our Creator. And no, I have no idea why some people seem to be born with more or less talents or why some people are born with extreme disabilities. I only know we are to use what we have been given to the best of our ability and one day we will be made whole. I look forward to that day and I praise the One that knows the number of hairs on my head!
Matt 10:30-31, And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid, you are worth more than sparrows.